By Lacey Owen
You didn’t see how hard I fell for you.
How a tiny little being could be so brand new
yet the most familiar love I’ll ever know.
How the second you were placed in my arms
it seemed life finally made sense.
But I can promise you I’ll spend every day I’m given, falling for you over and over again.
You don’t see the tears that fall in stolen moments of solitary relief, or the way my shoulders crumble after a hard day as I fall apart in Daddy’s arms.
But I’ll teach you that it’s healthy to show emotion. That there is absolutely no shame in expressing your feelings, and that tears are most definitely better out than in.
You won’t realise how much I struggle some days. With the noise, the chaos, the bickering and tantrums. Of course I don’t blame you, it’s not your fault. I am big and you’re only little.
But truth be told, some days I wish for quiet.
For stillness. For calm. And that’s okay too.
You can not comprehend just yet, the sacrifices I’ve made for you or the depth of my love.
But I’ll spend my days showering you with an abundance of affection, positivity and understanding so that you’ll never have to
wonder exactly what love is.