By Sarah Noble
My milk dried up due to being pregnant a few months ago.
We have continued to “dry” breastfeed on demand.
But, it’s gotten so painful I broke down in an overwhelmed, emotional, painful mess recently.
So, I had to make the tough decision to put my mental and physical health first.
I wanted him to stop on his own so I didn’t have to deal with me making the choice and him not being ready to stop.
I wanted to breastfeed till at least 2.
I thought I’d have longer in pregnancy before my milk dried up and I had to deal with it all.
Yeah, things don’t always go to plan huh?
I’m allowing myself to feel ALL the feels.
Grief, guilt, sadness.
It’s all part of the journey.
Weaning is hard, no matter how it happens.
I’ll miss it.
Yet, I’m also ready to have my body to myself for a few months, before I have a newborn again.
It’s such a mindfuck both wanting, and not wanting something to end.
I can’t bear to see my boy upset, but I know this won’t be forever.
He is held and loved.
Who knows what the future holds.
I’m just taking it day by day.
Have you weaned? How did you find it?
Sarah Noble is a Maternal Mental Health Coach, Motivational Speaker, and an Accredited Mindfulness Teacher. She specialises in helping first-time mums optimise their mental health, so they can navigate motherhood with confidence, clarity & authenticity. She lives in Dunedin with her partner and son Dylan, who is 21 months old. She is currently pregnant with number 2, after a miscarriage in January. She loves vegetables, rock music, nature, travel and swearing.