By Jacque Gorelick
Being a mom is the entering of uncharted territory.
Being a mom is packing a hospital bag as one version of yourself and coming home as another, tethered to a new life, now forever in your charge.
Being a mom is signing agreements and waitlists, then crossing fingers, miles, and barriers to make a family with a child, where there wasn’t one before.
Being a mom is injecting hormones, counting calendars, and pouring hope and science into a bottle and throwing it out to sea; waiting for a gift from the universe.
Being a mom is learning on the job how to swaddle, bathe, soothe, bandage, feed, and care for an ever changing being in constant need of something, from the very small to the very large. Every. Single. Minute.
Being a mom is lonely.
Being a mom is wiping. Wiping snotty noses, dirty bottoms, muddy hands, and slates clean – over and over again.
Being a mom is packing. Packing lunches, and backpacks, and sleeping bags for camp. Childhood rooms into boxes, boxes into car trunks, cards into envelopes, and books from dorm rooms to apartments, offices, and new homes.
Being a mom is holding. Holding hands, bike seats, and the “Oh sh*t!” handles of 16-year-old’s cars. Holding arms down aisles of weddings, and grand-babies in laps, and more often than you’d like: your tongue.
Being a mom is never knowing if you’re doing it right.
Being a mom is more. More love, more hugs, more laughter, more silly, more fulfillment, more pride, and more contented-quiet-moments-of-awe-and-gratitude than you expected, hoped, prepared, or bargained for.
Being a mom is less. Less time, less sleep, less exercise, less romance, less friends, less books (that aren’t filled with pictures and made of cardboard), less room in the bed, less time in the day, less interests, less hobbies. Less of you – the person you were before becoming a mother.
Being a mom is full. Full of play dough, easel paint, science projects, gymnastics, playgroups, school drop-offs and pick-ups, music lessons, soccer matches, cooking, dishes, laundry, and the mess that is life with children.
Being a mom is carrying. Carrying groceries, art projects, unfinished juice boxes, half-chewed gum, sleepy bodies from carseats to cribs, and worry, and angst, and dreams, and wonder.
Being a mom is carrying too much at once.
Being a mom is “Look Mommy!” and “Watch this!” and “Come here!” All. The. Time.
Being a mom is fueled by caffeine, lists, calendar reminders, “I did its!”, “Thank you Mommys!” and “I love yous!”
Being a mom is trade-offs, and sacrifice, and compromise, and career diversions, and life detours.
Being a mom is considering another person’s well-being and interests before your own with every decision you make.
Being a mom is being less to others so you can be more to the ones who need you most.
Being a mom is canceled plans.
Being a mom is handmade cards, and clay hearts, and macaroni necklaces, and stick figure drawings of you hand-in-hand together. It’s nose-to-nose kisses, and round, soft faces looking into your eyes and saying they love you more than ice cream and candy ― and meaning it.
Being a mom is having someone see you as a better person than you actually are.
Being a mom is being someone’s person.