I have worked with opening this pain up on the very first of my shamanic retreats, it hit and it hit hard. The process started, but somehow along the path of living afterwards, I was only able to heal so far.
Now it has come to light and I am ready. What I felt recently was this pain at the thought of my baby being flushed down the toilet, with the waste that the system carries. Gone. What has come from facing this is the truth: my child is not in this place at all. My child is in spirit walking beside me and now he is in my heart.
I call him he, because I “feel” he is. I “feel” he is beside me and I can at last allow myself the gift of giving and receiving this love.
I am a mother of two children, one just happens to be walking beside me in another form, that which we came from.
I am a mother of two children, one just happens to be walking beside me in another form, that which we came from.
I am writing this as I know how common miscarriages are, I am writing this to support others in their maintaining and honouring the relationship of a child in spirit. They are our children and it is time to reclaim them, love them and let them love you back. For if we hold the pain, guilt, secrecy and denial inside us, we cut ourselves off from this beautiful love.
Yes, we will have no memories of holding their hands or changing their nappies, their first smile, their first laugh, but we can still feel their presence in our life, our hearts. Place your dear child in your heart and love them, for they are there loving you right back. To feel it, you just have to allow.
So today light a candle, hold the space and honour, to all our children, ALL.
Sally Saint is a mother to an amazing 7 year old son, woman, healer, artist, walker of this path of life. She is passionate about natural parenting as it is in line with parenting from the heart. Her life has given her many experiences and she wishes to share and support others on this path. Her website is www.sallysaint.co.uk.
