By Sally Saint
What we do in the name of motherhood and mothering: the role that we all take on when we become parents; how many places we explore within to parent authentically; and the lengths we go to in our daily lives to ensure that they have the childhood they deserve.
Are we purely doing it for them? Or maybe it is also for ourselves? To create and cultivate that which we could not have as children ourselves, so we seek to create different roots for our own family?
In the self-isolation that the virus has handed us all, it gives us all the time and the opportunity to ask ourselves the above questions and more.
Right now I actively work at keeping this home a positive space for my son, irrelevant to what is going on in the outside world. Home should always feel safe, always. In recognising that this was what I wanted to cultivate in this period, it has really made me remember my own experience of home and really work on it, so that healing could wash its gentle balm over my being.
In laying the foundations for a safe home, it has been working for us both: the child who will never have the vibration of fear at his core and the mother who can unravel her own fears from her childhood.
It is not work for the faint-hearted. I have had dreams, memories and intense emotions, all of these in a very short period. Yet this is what we do.
As a parent, we take on something that will forever work on and with us, we will be challenged, we will have to dig deep and I know this process will continue.
