When I was 12 weeks pregnant we found out we lost you at 8 weeks. Our hearts broke and we were filled with a deep sadness. We were so excited to meet you. I loved having you in my tummy. I loved putting my hand over my tummy knowing you were in there, already part of our family. Your Dad and I were so excited when we found out we were having another baby, and that it was you. I know your sister was excited too, she’s really fun.
We already did so much together in the time you were alive in my tummy.
We had Christmas Day then we went camping around the North Island in our van and you even flew down to the South Island for a wedding. We danced until 2:30am together.
Thank you for being in my tummy the last 3 months. I’ve just been dreaming about life with you August, and how fun it was going to be. I wonder what you would have looked like? What your hair colour was? What your personality was going to be like? I can’t wait to find out one day. I was so looking forward to August 29th 2021. Your due date.
I’m so glad you’re in heaven. How special! I wonder what you’re doing up there? I do wish you could have stayed in my tummy longer and joined us here on earth. God had other plans, better ones, even if I don’t understand.
Your Dad and I already loved you so much. It broke my heart when you left my body, you were just so small and tiny. I hope you went nice and peacefully.
We will remember you forever.
We are going to bury you in the sand dunes down by the entrance by our house. Every time I go down to the beach I can think of you.
I wonder what this year is going to look like now? I need to find some new dreams. I know I am going to think about you a lot this year August. It’s funny because I only knew you for a few months but man I loved you. Thank you for being mine this short time on earth, I loved every moment. I will always be your mum. You were my little secret that only a few people in the world knew about.
I love you and I miss you. I wish you didn’t have to go.
See you in heaven one day August.
Love Always Your Mum xx