27/01/20
I just had a blood test.
The blood test that will tell me whether or not I’m still pregnant.
I’ve told people.
I have 4 friends pregnant at the same time.
I found an awesome midwife.
Everything seems aligned.
But, this was supposed to happen.
Whatever this is.
I’m supposed to talk about it.
I know that.
Maternal Mental Health begins in pregnancy.
It’s physically, mentally and emotionally tough.
We’re told to keep it to ourselves in the first trimester.
But, that’s when so much can happen and we need support!
Whatever happens today, I’ll share my journey.
So the women behind me don’t feel so alone.
So the women who have been through this feel seen and heard in my story.
27/01/20
I had a miscarriage.
I lost my baby.
I keep thinking why.
Yet, I know my body is wise.
I know this was supposed to happen.
I know I didn’t do anything wrong.
But, I cant help it.
Why now?
Why me?
It’s one if those things I don’t need to know the answer to.
I know I’m supposed to have another baby.
I know it will happen.
I guess it just wasn’t the right time.
Now it’s time to focus on looking after myself – body and mind and focusing on the beautiful child I do have.
When you’re ready body, we’ll try again.
I love you.
Goodbye.
Sarah Noble is a Mindset and Mindfulness Speaker, Writer and Mentor, and an Accredited Mindfulness Teacher. She specialises in helping first-time mums optimise their mental health, so they can navigate motherhood with confidence, clarity and authenticity. She lives in Dunedin with her partner and son, Dylan, who is 15 months old. She loves vegetables, rock music, nature, travel and swearing.
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